my heart never feel like tis b4....

i can oni make myself busy from thinking of him....

everytime i flash bak............

his appearance...

his smile...

his greeting goodnight to me....

his way of answering me....

his unique scent....

his favourite colour....

his favourite subject....

his favourite number....

his drawing 4 me...

his signature....

the teddy bear....

the teddy purse.....

the necklace....

the sweater....

the key chain....

N our warm embrace......

my tears will shed off......

i can't stop it...

maybe.......

everything will be fine aft tis havoc......

i'll think tat.....

mb we dun hv the fortune to be wit each oth 4ever....

mb my demands r too high....

mb my nature doesn't suit him....

mb my imagination was not logic.... thinking tat he must be a very perfect n suitable person 4 me....

actually.... i guess was wrong

i dunno him deeply....

i oni know him via his introduction of himself to me..... wit SMS.... is it? tat's my own view...

the time i get along wit him was scarce....

i couldn't give him happiness....

i couldn't give him everything a normal boy wants....

i prefer to leave....

is bcoz i'm selfish....

i wan my result to be very good....

in tis exam.... i got the 3rd place....

i was unsatisfied.... i'm an idiot!!!

i also dun like to hide the truth from my mom....

i'm telling her today....

hope she'll fathom my feeling...

when i cut my leg at night....

i feel kinda relax....

finally i could sleep....

he said there's no turning bak....

no turning bak....??

i'm very sad tat he said so....

i've told him it's jz 4 temporary.....

now.... mb.... i guess..... the followings r my assumption....

i think our relationship is a past

it's a sweetdream n nightmare...

it's a memory....

he tot the reason is bcoz of my mom n my impatience to wait him settle his stuff...

actually... he was WRONG....

if he didn't reconnect wit her.....

we r still together now....

sum girls.... really dun care abt their bf who develop further relationship wit the other girls.....

but i'm not tis type of girl!

i'm very serious in tis relationship....

i'd put alot of efford in it....

i hardly hide it from my mom....

i waited him to finish his work n accompany me to chat during the days....

i waited him to reply goodnight to me in the night....

i'd the extra effort to study is also due to his existance....

now......

everything is very dim.....

jz like the weather in the movie i watched recently....

TWILIGHT.....

i wish i could die now....

so tat both of us won't cry anymore....

when we see the related things....