Dang Day

DANG IT! so angry today....

humph..... wad the hell is tat la?!!!

i said i DUN HAVE means DUN HAVE la.....

A: can i have ur phone no.?

B: i dun hv h/p oh...

A: wad? leng lui dun hv h/p no.?

B: really la.... u dun trust me?

A: nvm.... i'll go to desa 2 n find u.....

wad is tis?? i hv not seen u b4 la......

dunno who u r.....

i think i hv the right to lie now =.=

hmmph..... tat one is the 1st annoying matter today....

now 2nd scene is on.....

i was standing by the guard house at school in the early morning....

jz to wait those students who come late....

i can still withstand tis wasting of time.... FINE~ =)

but now.... ur chewing gum in ur mouth was seen by the tchr....

he asked u to spit it out....

i was still FINE wit tat.....

i walked backward since the drain is behind of me n the pathway is sooooooo narrow.....

BUUUUUUUUUTTTTTTTTTTTT

y did u come so closed to me?? huh?!!!

y didn't u go n do ur business since i'd given u a way to walk??!!!!!

instead, u stood in front of me n blocked my way 4 several times until the prefect yelled at u..... stupid fella...... damn it~

if u dare to do so again, i dare to protest too.....

i will not be bullied by boys in school anymore.....

i know.... i'm short 4 u guys.... especially the upper form students.....

dun drive me to madness~

Sick Day

finally i'm sick....

i'd not been heavy sick for quite a long time ad....

sore throat, fever, flu and cough....

4 in 1....

good package....

luckily no breathing difficulty....

if it exists.... hmmm.....

i might have H1N1.....=.=

tis morning my mom didn't wan to wake me up.....

she wanted me to take a good rest....

very fortunately..... i set my alarm clock.... haha.....

coz i dun wan to miss any learning syllabus.....

plus i'm the one who is on duty to record students who come late for tis week.....

i wanna see how they r going to be punished by the headmistress today..... =.=

today the headmistress asked them to clean the toilets.....

haizzz..... the cleaners passed them brooms, detergent n a mop.....

i wonder if those students can cooperate well to "clean" the toilets....

i wanted to see but the tchr asked me to go bak classroom to study....

*pmr tis year = (

i oni heard the prefects said the students really did a "good job"

they slam the mop to the floor,

skidding on the slippery floor,

kick the doors and blah blah blah......

haha....

dunno la.... now i have to collect the form 3 classes' name lists.....

charm lo.....luckily my tchr asked me to give the duty to some oth prefects....

but i dunno whether they will pass the lists to me tmr....

it's in haste....

well.... jz try to put some trust in them....

i really trust some (*girls oni).... but the 3 boys.....

hmmmmmmmmm

i dunno i can their promise or not......

boys always loss their promise.....

i can't trust them too much.....

but i can't do anything

jz wait and see lo..... ^^

is it? nobody can't withstand me i guess....

3 years is so long....

jz imagine waiting a newborn baby to grow until 3 years old....

i know he's the one who wrote the msg.....

i can recognize....

i ad told him i won't fall for anybody anymore as long as i have not graduate....

but i told him not to wait me too....

OMG....

haiz....

today sc tchr announced tat our mid year term exam is prepared by the tchr from oth school....

tat means the paper is same 4 all the students in tis district~

haih.....

no tips... no clues.... no hints.....

gotta do revision on all the syllabus i had learnt....

form 1-form3

but luckily i started my revision ad~ phewww.....

i hope i can get flying colour 4 science~

hehe..... coz it's my favourite subject!

i'll go 4 the excellent result~!!!

kambateh ^^

i'm kinda diligent today.... amanda too!!!

she must be very happy if she see tis..... haha....

everyone was making noise in the class during moral period.....

felt like wanna use my maths book (it's the heaviest textbook among form 3 books) to slap those noise maker... ZzZZzzz

i dun understand why our moral tchr is so patient......=.=

mb tat's the reason she has been choosen as a moral tchr -------> kesabaran

(if i'm her.... their face will be deformed x__x)

well..... i'll make use of my extra time wisely from now on.....

it's a promise to myself.... not a lie......

i hope i can execute tis promise 4 my own sake~ =)

yea.... i've told my mom.....

i felt much relax....

i know.... she's the one who can understand me well.....

i dun wan to think of him any more

he's a passer-by in my life.....

i decided to give up...

yea... give up.....

i thought everything deeply ad.....

my mom n tchr r correct...

he'll go 4 further study...

if we continue....

i'll miss him too much until i can't concentrate on my own study....

i'm still young...

i hvn't sit 4 spm even pmr....

i dun wan my future to be disrupted.....

i wan it to be wonderful.... meaningful.....

so tat i won't regret...

besides... i hv thought abt his nature.....

well.... i dunno much abt him as i didn't see him often...

the feeling is jz like.... he's strange for me...

i like him was jz bcoz i had not seen any boys do well in exam like him b4....

tat's y i admire him...

so now.... i realized tat nature is the most vital condition to find a suitable mate....

i'm sorry tat i accepted him n left him in a sudden.....

i hope tis will be the memory in our life.....

i can't completely 4get.... but at least i let it go.....

if u see tis.... i hope u'll let it go.....

sorry n thank you

my heart never feel like tis b4....

i can oni make myself busy from thinking of him....

everytime i flash bak............

his appearance...

his smile...

his greeting goodnight to me....

his way of answering me....

his unique scent....

his favourite colour....

his favourite subject....

his favourite number....

his drawing 4 me...

his signature....

the teddy bear....

the teddy purse.....

the necklace....

the sweater....

the key chain....

N our warm embrace......

my tears will shed off......

i can't stop it...

maybe.......

everything will be fine aft tis havoc......

i'll think tat.....

mb we dun hv the fortune to be wit each oth 4ever....

mb my demands r too high....

mb my nature doesn't suit him....

mb my imagination was not logic.... thinking tat he must be a very perfect n suitable person 4 me....

actually.... i guess was wrong

i dunno him deeply....

i oni know him via his introduction of himself to me..... wit SMS.... is it? tat's my own view...

the time i get along wit him was scarce....

i couldn't give him happiness....

i couldn't give him everything a normal boy wants....

i prefer to leave....

is bcoz i'm selfish....

i wan my result to be very good....

in tis exam.... i got the 3rd place....

i was unsatisfied.... i'm an idiot!!!

i also dun like to hide the truth from my mom....

i'm telling her today....

hope she'll fathom my feeling...

when i cut my leg at night....

i feel kinda relax....

finally i could sleep....

he said there's no turning bak....

no turning bak....??

i'm very sad tat he said so....

i've told him it's jz 4 temporary.....

now.... mb.... i guess..... the followings r my assumption....

i think our relationship is a past

it's a sweetdream n nightmare...

it's a memory....

he tot the reason is bcoz of my mom n my impatience to wait him settle his stuff...

actually... he was WRONG....

if he didn't reconnect wit her.....

we r still together now....

sum girls.... really dun care abt their bf who develop further relationship wit the other girls.....

but i'm not tis type of girl!

i'm very serious in tis relationship....

i'd put alot of efford in it....

i hardly hide it from my mom....

i waited him to finish his work n accompany me to chat during the days....

i waited him to reply goodnight to me in the night....

i'd the extra effort to study is also due to his existance....

now......

everything is very dim.....

jz like the weather in the movie i watched recently....

TWILIGHT.....

i wish i could die now....

so tat both of us won't cry anymore....

when we see the related things....

i dun mean to hurt him.... really....

i'm selfish i guess.... but mb i'll feel better aft the pain....

i jz dun understand......

y we can't be frens?

i dun understand y...

actually i've cried 4 him last few days....

but i didn't tell him.... coz i know he'll say sorry....

i dun like....